I am young and young hearts cannot remain sad forever

7 minutes and a million thoughts flying through my mind.

I have written about this before, but there is something about the internet and this parallel coursing of anonymity and attention (don’t we all write our diaries with a hope than upon death, someone will unearth it and find the our innermost voice? who do we write for, ourselves solely? sorry, I digress) that preserves and satisfies respectively. The thought that a web wanderer might chance upon this little space of mine one day and smile and know that I have tried to fight this system by at least trying to clutter my life with a bit of beauty. 11 hours in the library won’t be spent in vain if I try a little bit every day to live life out of it. So what a better way to start then this summer. I have 2/3’s of it left and I want so much to use it to the most.

Let me live, love and say it in good sentences

3 weeks ago on May 27, 2013 at 10:40am

he wears a heart that could melt my own

to the someone who changed my life, all in a miracle of 5 days.

and he doesn’t know it.

he makes me want to become a better person just by being who he is. he hasn’t tried to change me and he certainly hasn’t tried to teach me anything. I know it probably isn’t even within his will to make me a better person. and that is what makes it so beautiful. him, himself, in his own person, just being able to make a difference, without even trying.

he’s taught me that the physical isn’t everything. that kindness, responsibility, maturity and a good heart transcends what eyes can see. it is the soul, the soul that matters deep down inside.

he’s also taught me to love in action, not just in word.

I’ve never met someone so pure, so beautiful inside. he must be an angel, or rather near to it.

for the sacrifices he has made. for the boy he is. I could search the whole world over but I don’t think I’d find another like him.

never in my life, one in a million.

a boy truly worth the greatest of hearts (and all only by Him who can breathe life into souls, no less)

1 year ago on December 17, 2011 at 10:15am
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2 years ago on May 14, 2011 at 06:19am

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

Bob Marley
2 years ago on May 14, 2011 at 06:17am